Thursday, October 21, 2004

Okay so, i havent blogged in awhile, like a long time, but i was reading richie's blog and had to respond to him and dyanna's comment. so this is what came out. as far as the rest of me... i'm feeling particularly sad and exhausted lately. Also, by the end of this month, i will have been gone every weekend, to NYC (twice), Indiana and home. I'm happy to be out and about and doing what i'm doing in these places, it just takes its toll, its a lot of running around and not enough time for reflection and breathing. on a great note, i have been able to spend time with good people that i dont get to see very often and i will see more this weekend. friends i studied with in the philippines. makes me miss it and wonder what i'm doing here. anyway, i need to go write in my journal. but wanted to let you all know that i love you and appreciate the time and love that you give to me.

I've been thinking quite a bit lately about things. dont know what to call this mess we are in. i do agree that we have to do something VERY DIFFERENT, CREATIVE, REAL! and the shit needs to be done right FUCKING NOW, in fact it should have been done yesterday. too many babies have died and lost their mommies. there is too much pain in this world. furthermore, it takes more than a few "hippies." it takes people to say enough is enough and just refuse to accept any more bullshit. to change things, the "average american" MUST make time to first realize that there is too much pain and make the choice to refuse to live like we are a minute longer. people argue that change takes time, but its been long enough. no more new political parties, or rallies, or meetings, or conferences or vigils or emails, just fucking refusal of the perpetuance of pain. how?